On the last lap and gasping

Updated Cover

Updated Cover

So I am at the last lap of getting my updated medical biography finished. I had to add about 5,000 words so far with descriptions of what I endured during those times of first diagnosis and treatment phases. These descriptions included the hospital, the nurses, what kind of side-effects I had with each chemotherapy drug, and how I felt during much of it.

Most of my emotions were numbness or sheer terror. I would prefer the numbness because I was able to go through each torture with equanimity. It is not easy or desirable to be a patient even in these enlightened times.

Of course reading, writing, and editing this manuscript has stirred up some feelings I had when I was very ill. If there is one thing I want to accomplish by writing this and re-writing this manuscript now is to give courage to other patients who are now going through this same process. Secondary accomplishment would be to put non-patients and caretakers into the mind of a patient as she navigates the process of getting well.

Thirdly, to let those around the patient know that even though a patient is proclaimed well, it doesn’t mean that the patient won’t have other problems caused by the medication or even the suppressed immune system. Even though I am stabilized, I still have to take a maintenance chemotherapy drug to keep in remission. It also means that I cannot go into large venues around large groups of people. I can get infections and infectious diseases easily even now.

And wellness? It is relative — ask any older person who is dealing with aches and pains.

When I finish the re-write, I will get this one back on Amazon, B&N, and Smashwords. I will also re-do the Trade Paperback.

So stay well– and live long.


5 thoughts on “On the last lap and gasping

  1. Yes, I am sure this brought up some old emotions. The good part is that they ARE old and you can look on them with a little more distance.

    I’m sure the updated book will be of great service to those going through similar problems, and to their families and friends. Don’t push too hard, so that you do not relapse. Take time to stay well.

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